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Tribute to Jordan

~Losing Jordan~
A thousand volumes of nothing but a continuous repetition of the expression of pain could not come close to expressing the all-encompassing, soul-destroying grief of losing my precious daughter.

There are no words in any tongue known to man to adequately express the depth of the horrific pain of losing my precious child--my sweet Jordan. If I were to convey the extent of this agony, the world would be filled with the never-ending echos of my screams.

I held my sweet, sweet Jordan in my arms as she took her last breath. If God was merciful he would have allowed me to die that day as well. Continuously, day and night, I pray that He will be merciful yet.

Were the entire world to weep with me, there would be a surfeit, yet, of unshed tears of sorrow.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Crazy. Nightmares chase me.
Memories rape me. Visions shake me.
Voices plague me. Mistakes shape me.
Cold inside me. Cries don't faze me.
I despise me.
Malignant malady. Death's neutrality.
Life's brutality. Pain's vitality.
Self is vanity. Loss of Sanity.
I can't save me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~My child. My child.
Why God, why?
Please be merciful, let me die.
Heart don't beat.
Eyes be blind.
In the ground, cold like ice.
Body fall, spirit rise.
End the life I despise.
~leilei
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Anyone who has the power to make you believe absurdities has the power to make you commit injustices." ~ Voltaire


“There is a destiny which makes us brothers; none goes his way alone. All that we send into the lives of others comes back into our own.” ~ Edwin Markham


"Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it". ~Andre Gide

"Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God" ~ Floyd Watson

"The fetters imposed on liberty at home have ever been forged out of the weapons provided for defense against real, pretended or imaginary dangers from abroad." ~James Madison


"Necessity is the plea for every infringement of human freedom. It is the argument of tyrants; it is the creed of slaves." ~William Pitt

"The power of kings and magistrates [government] is nothing else, but what only is derivative, transformed and committed to them in trust from the people to the common good of them all, in whom the power yet remains fundamentally, and cannot be taken from them, without a violation of their natural birthright." ~John Milton


"We are here on Earth to do good to others. What the others are here for, I don't know." ~W. Auden

"Free your mind from the control matrix of your own making." ~I Am Sovereign

"The ultimate consequence of protecting men from the results of their own folly is to fill the world with fools." ~Herbert Spencer

Each smallest act of kindness reverberates across great distances and spans of time, affecting lives unknown to the one whose generous spirit was the source of this echo, because kindness is passed on and grows it time it's passed, until a simple courtesy becomes an act of selfless courage years later and faraway. Likewise, each small meanness, each expression of hatred, each act of evil. ~H. R. White, This Momentous Day
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I'm reading: Order Out Of Chaos (Elite Sponsored Terrorism and the New World Order), Paul Joseph

Laughing at: Up Against the Wall Redneck Mother, Ray Wylie Hubbard

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